Looking back at my experiences here at Albion College, it’s both sad but yet full of optimism to think of graduation. There have been so many wonderful memories that will stay within my heart forever, and as much as I don’t want to grow up, it’s a part of life everyone has to accept. It’s the most important time of the year; a year when you start figuring who you are and where you want to go.
Coming to grips with letting go is a difficult thing. I remember my first day in the U.S; everything seemed so new, people, technology, legal system, etc. With time, I got used to them and learned how to cope with the cultural differences. I don’t know exactly how, but some things just happened naturally.
Creating friendships and relationships with people were always exciting and with every new encounter, each individual taught me an aspect of myself that I never knew that even existed. However, thinking about never seeing some of these people ever again scares me and shows how cruel life is.
Being a foreign student makes it even more difficult to comprehend with since I will have to live thousands of miles away as I go about life, never to see some of my closest friends. I like to believe that people come into our lives for a reason though, otherwise how could I’ve ever discovered my strengths, weaknesses, and my ambitions? An analogy I can think of is a train ride. I am headed towards my final destination, some will leave the train at a certain point, some will enter the train at a certain point, and some might stick around throughout the whole trip. Things come and go in life. Accepting that fact and remaining optimistic about the things to come has freed me from immense grief and despair.
Sometimes enjoying your undergraduate years as a foreigner can be difficult. I used to party like crazy the first moment I got here, but sooner or later, I grew apart from it. I used to dedicate myself fully into my sports, but I never saw myself being a professional athlete. I used to hit the books studiously, but I saw my relationships with people deteriorate.
I focused all my energy onto just a single point, but I always ended up being unhappy with the consequences. Maybe it took a longer time for me to figure it out compared to other people, but now I realize there always had to be a balance between everything. Being a silly freshman to a mature senior had it’s ups and downs, but looking at the bigger picture of my life, I notice everything flows in harmony. For whatever reason, things come so easily now. From meeting new people, getting good grades, to enjoying myself. With age, I certainly believe inner wisdom and clarity come.
Graduation is coming! I am scared & yet excited! Where do I see myself 5 years from now? 10 years? I don’t know. Although I wish I knew, I don’t want to know because things always change and the Orgil I am right now will not be the same Orgil 5 or 10 years from now.